Lighters?, Who needs them....

Still not smoking, and feel brilliant. Feels a little wierd thinking about not having smoked. Peculiar to describe, and I cant remember the last time I bought a packet of the dreaded, moneywasting, paper rolls, with flammable stinky leafy contents.
Oh no!, I think I'm turning into ......."EX_SMOKER GIRL"!!!
The person that takes great delight, and in fact downright relish, in extolling the virtues of not smoking. How it is unsociable, and cancer creating....and I insist of telling people that with a raised voice.
I'm not shouting now, am I?

Lazy Sunday Afternoon..

Still smoke free.... hooray,
Is it me or is there more adverts on telly for trying to pack up smoking...everytime I look its Nicotenelle this, and Nicotenelle that. Patches, sniffers, doctors. The government certainly are trying to encourage more people to give up. Bloody good job, I say. Terrible habit..
It'll be drink next...
Dont believe it...
New set of adverts just popped up on ITV for "if your concerned about how much you drink"..
Aghh!!.
I may join a convent. Though with their fashion sense, that`ll be another bad "habit"...

Day 4 (or 14) : Chews-day...

Today is Chews-day, because I am now on the toffee's. Been good again today, so hiccups seem to have dissappeared, for now. Was expecting the worst at work, but wasnt as bad as I thought, so still am an official non-smoker.Seem to have developed a side-effect. (Apart from continual minty breath), and that is nose bleeds. Could be coincidence, or could be related, not sure.
Feel happy to have survived another day, without fags. I am putting all of the money aside, that I am not using for the dreaded cancer sticks. Taking into consideration the amount I spend on sweeties, I have exactly £1.73 left. (Only kidding).
Am not using anything other than willpower at the moment. I had one of the little "plastic" type fags that take the nicotene cartridge, but I forgot about it, and it spent 2 hours in the washing machine, amongst my dirty laundry. Probably not very effective now, though it does have a nice "summer fresh" odour.  Another successful day. Heres to tomorrow...

Day 3 : Minty Monday...

Not at work today and no means to pop to shop as my scooter is not working. So, even my bike is smoke free (ho, ho). Normally, not having any fags in the house, and no potential to get them, means sub-consciously craving them even more. But not this time. No extra "pangs" or cravings.
Not sure it will be the same if I'd run out of Everton Mints though. Starting to check them now, make sure I've got enough...
Stressful day tomorrow, so must be fully prepared.
I will not weaken...

Day 2: Getting Back On track...

After the relapse 2 days ago, my positive attitude is starting to develop again (which is good). With that in mind I have not given in and have gone both days without smoking. If I think about my relapse, then I think of it as a slight hiccup, nothing more. Seem to be sucking sweets like mad though, and that seems to be stopping the hiccups, so will have to watch the weight. (As well as looking up local dentist numbers).
Am off work today, and tomorrow, so a little easier perhaps. However, I know that Tuesday will be a stress. Things happened that brought on the relapse at work, that will be updated on my return to work.
Musn't think too much though, got to grit my teeth. (Actually, thinking about it, gritted teeth literally does make it difficult to light a fag....Hmmmmm).

Day 9 : Day Zero I'm afraid...

7 days, they say, was how long it took to create the world. Well, I think I followed in Gods footsteps (not in a religious way), but by taking a step back, thinking I had done it. Had a real tester of a day at work. I thought all of the challenges at work had been faced. Not the case. And yes, I lit up a fag. Am I proud? No. Did i get the "hit" I expected? No. Did it help me de-stress? No again. Have I given up giving up? Definitely no!. Its back to square one again, but I can take some positives (believe me you have to take positives, and that doesnt mean excuses). I know I can last 7 days. If I add 1 day to each time I give up it that would mean only 26 fags in a year (yep, do the sums).  Some might say that thats being negative, and that I have resigned to smoking in 8 days time. As with an major task, though, I think the key is to make the challenges stretching, but achievable. Otherwise the task seems just too major, and you give up before you start (or in my case "stop")
So heres to trying again...

Day7: A week....yet still strong.

Officially, week 1 is complete. Officially i havent had a cigarette in all that time. However, unofficially I had one last Thursday. So 6 days then, but I am still proud of what I have achieved. I know that I am yet to experience the real "craving", the real "tempter", that will test my resolve. But if I take comfort from the last days, then I hope I can continue.
I have been using a combination of will power and sucky sweets. I'm on 40 a day...